Do you have any?
Are you living it?
Do you want more?
Are you aiming for more?
Are you living your husbands dream enroute to yours?
The reason behind these questions......we have pretty much decided that in 10 years time it is my turn to live my dream.
The trouble is that i dont have any....darrel said surely you are good at something that you can do to follow your dream......
well no,,, i dont think im good enough at anything to pursue it with a one minded determination, my trouble isthat i think im not good enough because everybody else does it so much better so why should i try to do it better.....?
Yep i enjoy sewing....but would i do it as a living...nope
i enjoy scrapbooking but am i creative enough....nope
I love photography,,,,,,would i do it as a living..ive toyed with the idea but when i mentioned this to dh I also said that i wasnt good enough and he told me to keep it as a hobby,,,,,,hence the next point i bring up....
But then if i do want something im scared that when i get it i wont really want it anyway,...our discussion got quite heated because he feels i should know what i want.
I keep telling him i still dont know what i want to be when i grow up....he told me that im like Leigh who prefers others to make the desisions and i just follow them...and that is true...
He said but if we owned the block and you could give up work an help me would you? I said why would I? Im only doing this because it is his dream not mine but im along for the ride.
Dont get me wrong.....i dont resent it for one minute but why the hell would i want to do it all the time LOL
He said wouldnt you like to travel......well no...im scared of travelling.....id rather stay home in my comfort zone and do what i enjoy...keeping a tidy house and just pottering about b oruing scared nd unintresting yep that is me.....
I told him in 5 years time when the block is paid for im happy to potter at my job and just mosey on thru life, then later move to Qld....and do a something easy job......eg a coffee shop like now, a clothes store a spotlight or something like that......i told him thay hey my dream may have even been invented by the time we get there LOL
I envyanyone who knows what they want or who are prepared to go out there and get what they want from life........
I would really love some input here anyone.......................
thanks for reading my dribble:)
