If you want it bad enough you make it happen, If not- you will make an excuse!

Hi people...does anyone even visit here anymore????
Testing testing :)
I apologise in advance for typos, i always think i get them all then BAM i see heaps after i have posted so bear with me and skip over them:) Thanx..xxx
The quote in my title kinda like my life at the moment but excuses are weak and i am trying to turn my thoughts around to can dos instead of cants:)

Anyway im going to babble on as usual.....i have finally been to the doctors about my anxiety and (apparantly a small amount of depression, thrown in for good measure) because im so sick of feeling like shit and the usual crap that goes with it.

I always question how i look, i have a mental dialogue going on in my head all the time about how i look, weightwise, not so much about looks.....whats for tea, how can i cook something interesting, oh lets try a new recipe, nah lets not looks too complicated, oh i have to get all those ingredients, oh they went off before i used them, damn ive wasted more money that we cant afford. Should go to they gym, shouldnt have done that, shoulda, coulda, woulda, i detest that....now ive even been away from the gym and that makes me sad. But im scared too now that my hearing problem symptoms might resurface and i lose the hearing in my other ear,,,vicious circle i SO NEED TO BREAK!!!! I want to be happy healthy and fit againxx

I am really disliking my job at the moment, i am currently on holidays, fancy working somewhere for over 8 years and being reduced to feeling stupid, forgetful, anxious, mistake making because im trying to hard to keep one step in front of everyone else so i dont get into trouble, ive lost my confidence, ive blocked work collegues out, im overlooking the most obvious things because im worried, even coffee making which i loved has been made a chore, i used to love it so much i wanted to do more barista courses so i could make the best coffee there....hmmm sadly not so now, im happy to delegate it to someone else.

I am seeing a councellor and surprisingly after just one visit it seemed to help, i just want some ways to cope with how to get thru the days at work.
Unfortunatley quitting is not an option, there isnt alot of industries here in this area and really only supermarkets, tourism, and fruit packing....not that there is anything wrong with these, i have already worked in most of the industries mentioned.
Im so looking for something else......my idea of a great job would be run a JayJays here in the riverland, a Bookstore..who doesnt love books or a cold rock ice cream store......all of these i think would be viable but i just dont have the money and to be honest the drive to follw them, im tired all the time, lethargic, with a oh its all too hard mentality! All part of the depression im told.
I do have a small idea in my head for an online business but i need the time to follow up on that one first, i think it will work:)
Oh oh im also thinking of a fitness instructor...same excuse, my ear, when i have attacks my balance goes, and i get vertigo and nausea

On to other more happier news, i have to find the joy of things in life again, slowly but surely i am, i know there is beauty to be had all around but when you cant see the forest for the trees it can be pretty difficult.

Now usually i am a Suck it up Priness kinda person because i feel dwelling on something isnt going to make it better. Part of the information i got was i have to reach out to people more. The first step to knowing something was wrong was acknowledging it and doing something about it. I also have to reach out to people more...i am kind of a loner really and it is hard for me to join in with people as i dont do too well in groups of more than 2 or 3...not sure why, i feel i cant fill friendship shoes or some stupid thing...will be nice to get to know myself a little better by talking to someone from the *outside.

So a little run down of things to be thankful for.
A walk with my little puppies...oh they make me smile and laugh out loud. Lexxii is just so cute,,,,i took them for a walk one day and we had commented that Winnie had yet to cock his leg. He is over one now but been desexed so i thought maybe they dont do it if they were desexed?? i dunno:) Anyway this particular walk Lexxii had me bent over in laughter because it was SHE that cocked her leg,,,oh talk about funny! She also stands on her back legs to look for win whenb he disappears because the grass is too long and she looks like a cute little Meerkat!

Leigh is doing quite well, dont want to jinx this.....my little car has been off the road since june, only because it wasnt high on our list of priorities to fix, only the radiator needed replacing and some cosmetic work doing, well im pleased to say that Leigh took my old radiator out and put the new one in the other day. He also fixed my look as it was hanging out the door and now he and Daz are using as kind of a project car:) They brought the paint and are working together to sand the worst bits back and they will respray her for me. The naughty boys also went to the wreckers yesterday and brought a set of mags for it!!!! Hmmm i can think of better ways to spend my money but hey they were excited:)

Leigh went to a fancy dress party last night, they had to go as a movie character, he went as Heath Ledger as Dark Knight...he looked really cool, and as a bargain he wanted a suit to wear, here i am thinking oh great leave it til sat arvo before getting one, after popping down to big w we saw the Peter Morissey suit thast has been advertised on tv about his brand going into Big W dont get me wrong, very swish and great price but Leigh found a jacket for 40 and pants for 20. so for $60 he has a full suit and he can also wear it to my brothers wedding in Mildura this coming Saturday:) Yay A bonus really:)

He is actually having a bit of a tough time with not working at the moment, his anxiety gets in the way sometimes. I have mentioned he go see someone to address this before he seeks another job but he just shuts me down flat. But however this is his choice not mine, and while he says he has to put his car away because he cant afford the rego and fuel, well that is not my cross to bear ans i let it go.

Zoe is beautiful, headstrong and still so loving, i worry about the food she consumes in her bedroom in private, you go in there and there are timtams, m&ms, biscuits, lollies galore, im not happy about it,,,,,what can i do? Any ideas anyone??She wont listen to me and aside from going in pulling all the food out and throwing it away, which we did discuss, im not sure what to do...she is putting on weight as a result of course and i kinda feel like a failure there because they dont eat breakfast unless i cook it (so i do to cook the 3 mornings im home a week) they wont take lunch, so they are either eating crap or nothing at school and then she eats crap after school and finds it hard to eat her vegies...grrrrr....guess i hae to let that go too....ummm something else, she has a boyfriend and they have been going out for over 12 months so now there is the sex thing! Mum i wanna go on the pill for my period...yeah right i wasnt born yesterday LOL....but daz and i have talked about it and im guessing that when i take her back to the drs about her warts im gonna dump on her about the pill while there to the doctor.....she will be so embarrassed but she is hard to tell things too, like a typical Teenager they know it all!....Well i dont quite want to be a granny yet due to her ignorance so i will have to play that one out:)

I have worked out i am kind of a control freak but thankfully in a minor way, darrel calls me anal because i love my house clean...(and i feel awful when it isnt to my liking:() actually he calls me anal about alot of stuff haha.

I have pulled some stuff out of my scrap room and daz is painting it gloss white for me, my craft boom has a treadmill in it, two single bed matresses, after the weekend when my sister has stayed they will go in the camper trailer, a bookcase of dvds and books, a huge desk a chest of plastic drawers and a filing cabinet and smaller bookcase in it. Im wanting to re arrange it and getting it looking lovely and i want to paint one wall China Silk (or sky) its a Haymes Paint in an aquaey colour:) SO that is a big deal for me at the moment along with all the crockery on my kitchen bench my home looks like an op shop at the moment:)

I have taken photos and i shall post them up later,,,, i have to take the girl to work.
There is a whole story atattched to that one too...little bugger, got put off because her heart wasnt in it,,,just to make her think about things....she is hard to read sometimes, not sure if the reasoning went through her head or if she just brushed it off but she is back at work again with a payrise so there is incentive there to pull her finger out and do well if she is interested:)
Im going to post this now as i have to go but will edit it after c u soonxx

Hello World!

I forgot how cute they were when babiesxxxx Mwahxxxxx

Our new Vegie Garden:) Yummo

Well i sit here on my couch, perusing blogland and i thought it was about time that i did a post. Nothing witty, creative or clever like the posts i love to visit.
Many of them make my heart smile and for that i am grateful. We all need somewhere we can retreat to when the world jumps on our shoulders and weighs us down dont you think?
I wont go into the nitty gritty only because i am trying hard to see the good things i have in my life and not dwell on the things i cannot or am unable to change.
This frustrates and brings me down at times but im thinking along the lines of "suck it up princess":)

Anyway i have been kinda busy with life love and everything as well as being sick! God i hate being sick, i hate letting my boss down and my family too because i cant keep my jobs done to my satisfaction and it irks me so...anyway,,,,enough of that:)

We had a bad weekend the other weekend, our two puppies were out with Darrel and me while we were pruning. They came back to us all proud and happy with themselves carrying a bag of *stuff* well it looked like they had been eating it. Not thinking too much of it we took it away from them and continued on with our pruning. A bit later we had to go up to the shed to see one of our employees and thats when the puppies started acting odd! First they began to race around like crazy things and chase each other like gosh i dont know, crazy puppies! After a few minutes of this i noticed the boy puppy was standing stiff legged and drooling like a tap had been turned on in his mouth. The little girl puppy was also standing stiff legeed but not drooling as much...i freaked and told Daz we need to get them to the vets.
We raced up to the house and rang and were told we could take them to the other vet surgery (ours isnt open over weekends) anyway we did this, meanwhile little man was freaking out in the back of the car ans little miss decided to vomit on my lap (luckily there was a towel for just that purpose) we got them to the vets and they were examined, it looks like they were poisoned. Why and how?? They were put straight onto drips and had their little tummies irrigated to clear whatever was in their system, they also were given charcoal, this was over the whole weekend. We went back on saturday, little miss was so much better but little man had us all worried, at one stage the vet didnt think our little man would make it. What a shock, what would we do with out these crazy adorable creatures to love, yeah we have kids and cats too but puppies, well they are a league of their own arent they. Anyone who loves and has puppies would know this:)

So to cut an even longer story short the vet did tests on their urine and they came back positive for marijuana!!!!!!
What the !!!!!! All we can think of is they have found someones stash, they came from up the road end of the block so someone may have dropped it, oh any number of reasons, all i know is it wasnt ours:) And the vet bill at the end of it....well lets just say we could have brought a cheap small car! But do you know what...theres no way i would have left those poor little puppies not be treated.

Its never ending here at our house, with kids having meltdowns along with me i might add, puppies to the vet, being behind on all of the block work being stressed out, sick, not getting to the gym which is my sanity...., and variuos other things you can see why i like to visit other peoples lives and sometimes wish i had the time to persue some of the amazingly crafty things they get up to, bake a yummy cookie, or just chillax on holidays:) I envy all these people but in a good way because i too have a great life sometimes im just a little overwhelmed by it all, and i realsie i am so not the only one:)

So on that note im going to pop off.....not in the rude way oh before i go im going to post a pic of gorgeousness.....hang a bit!!! Brb!

This gorgeous scrumdiddlyumptious material was sent to me by my soul sister...i so love love love this material and im trying to find something to make from it!!! Alas i have no ideas as yet!

Just playing with bluetooth

Canvas Zoe did for her BF for their 12 month anniversary!


Peas and Beans ready to be planted into big vegie garden.....so easy to grow, 7 dollar nursery container from cheap as chips i think



Lexxii Pops....xx love this thingxxx



Ummm yours truly...doing the kid thing and taking self portraits:)

Random Ramblings

Well nothing much ever happens that is too exciting in our world...always something going on thou which keeps us all out of trouble for the most part:)

My boy got a new job but found that 26 hours a week (long weekend days mainly) along with school and TAFE all got a wee bit much for him and we had some issues the other day. Needless to say he has backed off a little, well alot and has stopped working there just for the time being. Darrel went in and spoke to a duty manager about the situation and thankfully where he now works legally can roster you on for 1 shift every three months so they are happy to take it slow with Leigh and wait to see how he goes. We didnt want him to burn his bridges totally. And after Dad speaking to the manager he was more inclined to think oh ok, the pressure is off maybe i can try another area in the shop. So for that we are grateful and for the moment we have our happy son back,poor love, he and i both suffer from anxiety so poor zo was on the phone to daddy texting the other day say HELP mum and leigh are both having anxiety attacks and let me tell you it aint pretty!! She is such a darn sweetheart and i LOVE her so much.....i also ADORE this boy of ours, we are so lucky and proud that they are our kids......

Not so proud tho when the teenager clocks up a $525 phone bill......ummm yeah but to make matters even worse...while ringing telstra for 2.5 months to get that bill issued to me because i never received it...long story,,,,well we got another bill.....this even worse.....$567.00....i tell you what, we got the kids and the boyfriend and girlfriend here (turned out well actually) and just explained that this CANNOT happen again......we will see and because most of the calls are to the bf....young miss will be loosing money from her bank account, she doesnt seem to worried about it as its not one she accesses but it will make me feel better......

I cant pay all this as well as the new freezer.,,,,yes unfortunatly the freezer decided to topple off the perch for the last time so we had to search for another one,,,,:) got a good deal actually, last one on the floor was 1399 we got it for oh....1250....so not a bad deal.

I have been doing some night shifts at work this last few days. The packer left and i had offered a while ago to do some work over there.....anyway i start at 1.30am to roughly 7.30am 5 days a week and from 3am til say 7am on sat mornings.
You know what i dont even mind it:) Apart from the fact you dont have a life.
Im trying to get lots of sleep because in the back of my mind i am very consious that my ear problem could have been caused by stress and being run down, so i try to go to bed about 10am til say 2.30 3pm and again back to bed at 7.30pm or thereabouts...so not much time to do much else......

Darrel had a play with my computer as i got my new phone happening and because i want to play along with the A Photo a Day game some friends are playing on fb....but i dont want to go to the trouble of lugging out the camera resizing pics ect...so i have yet to have a bash at that:)

Have nearly finished pruning the plums, did take photos the other day of the hedger that came in and took the tops of the trees off so i shall post them when i get some time up my sleeve...will have a bash at putting pics of the new vegie garden up here..hang ten:)

okay those pics are on camera but i did upload a rather shabby not nice pic of the scarf i crochetted....i visited Lucy from Attic24 and saw a link for a blanket a friend was making, i loved it and promptly decided to make me one.....but turned it into a scarf instead......i wear it everywhere and it is so warm:)

Might disappear for the moment, wan to have a shower and try to squeeze in some grocery shopping now i have a freezer and someplace to store my food.....hmmm what we would have done without them...although i really like mine to keep leftover stews and soups in because on weekends when we are busy with block work and dont have time to grab something healthy for lunches or tea at least there is always something healthy on hand:)

We will be taking a few days away shortly, we need some time together as a family, ideas being tossed about were Queensland, Melbourne Adeladie and Mildura.....this trip will be either Adelaide or Mildura...if Adelaide we will take a side trip to visit Maggies Shop, from the Cook and the Chef...really like these guys and would love to *meet* them, i think maggie has daily cooking in her shop???? From memory??

Anyway the plan is to get in the car and just drive, with no particular destination in mind...just go:) We wont be stopping in to see anybody and wont go anyhere we dont feel like going:) I think we SO need this timexx
Cya Char,,,,,

Love a comment:)

I DID IT!!!!!!

Ive been trying to hit the 5km mark while doing my running.
Welkl since being sick and then being lazy, i decided on my birthday to get serious...no one is going to do this for me i have to do it myself, so i have slowly been running and lifting my weights 4 days a week and just trying the best i can.

Anyway today I DID IT!!!!!!!!!!



I ran for 45 minutes, yes you read right 45 minutes.
My average speed was 8.1km
And my distance was

6.08km

Im so proud of myself i could burst.
I must say that Cathy Zielske has been inspiring me immensly as well so thankyou Cathy:)

Charxx

Edited to add.....

Follow on from my yesterdays post. We planted strawberries, celery, broccoli,spinach,cauliflower and peas into the vegie garden today.
And just out of interest my fruit bowl is filled with our own grown, tangelloes, navel oranges, lemon and apples.....gotta love the country life!

Hi There World!

These two are my shadows.....seems wherever i am they are...here they are sitting on my laptop bag at my feet while im on my computer Cute huh?:)
Okay i have to ask......do you think they might notice this??? I keep getting told that all i have to do is ask...ummm hello,,,,if its obvious why do i have to ask all the time...my rubbish and recycling spot:)


The random things we find when Zoe is left to her own devices:) I love it!

Leigh all dressed in his office wear.

Their teams slogan

The sign Leigh helped design and print.

Gday all. Long time no post but hey im not about to apologize for that:) Im not too sure that there is a world of people out there waiting on my every boring bit about my life i choose to share here :)

But share i will...theres been quite alot happening here. And in no random order, bit like me i shall share a little bit of *stuff* with you.

The last week of school my boy participated in Australian Business Week, they are given a subject and a fake account and they are to design and market their products, taking into account, costs, overheads, job positions available and the like. Leighs group called themselves Omega Designs. They had to market a pair of soccer shoes. They did extrememly well in their competition, coming second overall and with their marketing director,,,,eg Naomi coming third with her reports so good news all round. I do have some photos that i will post at a later date and put to this post.

Darrels dad passed away on the 19th June and we held the wake here at home. There was alot for Daz to do, even though his dad had actually paid and planned his funeral Darrel wanted a few extra nice touches. All in all the day went well and unfortunately like anything its a shame to catch up with relatives at a funeral, even so it was a nice day.

Zoe and i took a day trip to Mildura the first day of the holidays, i had a foillow up appointment regarding my hearing aid and she had saved money so we had planned to go shopping. And shopping she did! She scored an amazing range of goodies at various stores...apart from Jay Jays i would have to say that Factorie is a pretty darn cool store....i thought it was quite pricey but turned out not as bad as some i expected and hey i even found some clothes for me:)

We hit quite a few shops on our travels and had a ball, the best bits that i found hard to beat was the excited little squeals that my nearly 15yo daughter let out when she found something *so cute* that she just had to have. That along with the cute little feet stamping just made my dayxxxxx Love you gert!xxx She came home woth scarves, pants, tops, bonds undies,globe socks,brand name jumper and even a not so brand name one nearly identical to her favourite, for 15 dollars!!! I picked up two navy tops that i plan to get embroidered for school....sure beats 35 dollars, they were 15 as well.

Our volley ball team that zoe and i played in got to the grand final...and we actually won it! Whoo hoo Patisserie Tarts....hope to scan a photo to pop in here too...it is a dreadful pic that made the newspaper by the way, maybe i shouldnt post it LOL

We just came in from the new vegie garden. The man has been itiching to do this for the last 3 months. We had a gorgeous one set up in the back yard but unfortunatly the puppies had an absolute ball digging it up...hhmmm and actually i have the photos to prove that too!

I know im promising lots of photos now to just deliver.

We have finished our apples and we picked and pruned or oranges as well, the burn heap has also been reduced to nothing so that is fantastic! Always so much to do.

Still need to prune the stone fruit.....
Also have the BAS to do along with PAYG and group certificates.....and get things ready for tax this year. We recently have just finished and received our 2008/2009 returns. I must say we did get a lovely surprise :) I so dont want it hanging over my head for that long again. The kids even got a return, Leigh used his for car rego and zoe used hers for shopping:)

I have finished crochetting a scarf that i love...i visited Attic24 Lucys blog and found some so easy instructions for a scarf that i could help but make...only thing was it was supposed to be a laprug but you started with a long chain of stitches...like 250...but i decided a scarf was the way to go as i couldnt get any more wool the same to continue the blanket and so decided to make two scarves. Mardi said i should post the pics on my blog as a craft list i wanted to complete:) So that too will have a photo pop up on it soon.

Can anyone tell me how to link someones name in my blog to theirs....still dont know how to do it:)

As a matter of fact im waiting for lunch to cook might grab the camera and pop some pics in here ,,,makes for a more interesting post. Now im not into the lovely photshop borders...need more time to practice so please bear with my plain old pics......i also like how people do the collages......oh lightbulb moment....i used to do them in Picasa!!!! Hmmm may need to revisit that! Just dont seem to have the hours available in my day to do the productive things i really want to do.

Ive been so ultra tired lately and really quite down. Ive been feeling *off* due to my illness, there will be lingering vertigo nausea and dizziness which i think will last indefinatley. Im really quite shy about getting back to the gym because i dont want it to flare up again, who knows i may loose the hearing in my other ear.

Im feeling fat frumpy and ugly because of this. Im trying to get some more sleep and maybe will be able to face going to the gym again....geez i am so missing it and how it makes me feel. I know when i go that i dont have my back troubles beacuse wht weights and core exercises i do help to strengthen my back. At the moment i am visiting the chiropracter each month and in pain. So there is another reason i must get back:) Im just finding it hard to face it at the moment. I do however check out Cathy Zielskes Blog and facebook page and she is so inspiring me to get out and run again...!!!!!!!

Well i might leave it here for now but grab the camera and try to post some pics.

Im actually waiting to ring virgin mobile when leigh is home as i have brought his nokia e63 from him...im loving the fact i have a camera phone. (mine is about oh.......dunno how many years old so there is no blue tooth, camera, music nothing! Nada! Zip...just a phone:)Im taking pics with my new phone but because the sim is inactive i cant use it and i want to change it to my custom telestra number before i can upload any pics:)

Oh speaking of Leigh.,,,,,my clever lad has a new job, out or the 14 days of school holidays he will have 5 days off! Although he needs to complain about that...not sure what it is about this boy, whinges cause he's got no work then whinges cause he's got it!!!!! Are the teenage boys all the same or is it just mine.....geez THINK OF THE MONEY!!!!!! He wants to save up for a VT commodore so think of the money!!!!

I so love coolish days. Yes i know i have lots to do in the winter months, eg lots of pruning and winter tidying up. BUT......

The last two days i have spent time on and off on my computer and today i feel that id love to do some blog hopping and creating, i popped over to Mardis blog (http://mardiwinen.blogspot.com/)and saw that she had put up some photos of water, she is playing along with http://www.ishouldbefoldinglaundry.com/ im sorry i am rather computer illiterate but if any one can tell me how to add a link with the persons name i would be SO GRATEFUL...thankyou:)

I get all inspired when i see what other people can do and how clever they are and kinda feel a bit,,,,,i dunno,,,,,so not exciting LOL...anyway i digress,

I did a couple of scrap layouts last night.......i havent scrapped for SO LONG, although i did go to Allies house the other weekend with Mardi and i did scrap, im planning on uploading these layouts to my blog so you can see what ive been up to.

I am also working on my quilt still, but unfortunatly darn facebook is taking up my precious time there,,,gotta limit myself there and be more constuctive in using my time, how else am i going to attempt the things i want to do:)

Today is going to be a slowish day im thinking, Darrels dad passed away yesterday and Darrel is doing abit of sorting out to help his mum. They never had a close relationship and Daz has asked if i would hold a wake here for the family, i said yes as i did already think of it so now there will be a few odds and ends we need to do to just tidy up a bit, nothing much really, just do a little weeding and wash some windows. I will make some sandwiches and order some sweets through work and that will be it i think. That will do it...we arent here to impress anyone:)

I played with my Ipod on friday night...i havent updated for a while and decided i needed some more music, so i went searching thru my folders and music from others and added some cool stuff, i also brought some music from Itunes,,,,so my ipod has such stuff like music, simple plan, googoo dolls, taylor swift, all american rejects, jessica mauboy, katy perry, ben lee, the killers, lady gaga pussycat dolls, stiff dylans the veronicas... good mix there as well as what is already on it, nickleback, mika, panic at the disco, kellis, gabriella cilmi, jonas brothers and pink. Took some of the classics off for a while:)

Im back running at the gym YAY!!!! I So missed it and didnt realsie how much...i got my measurements done and ummm so not happy LOL i have slightly spread, but lost weight,,,anyway my goal is to run 5km non stop...the other day i did 4.06km in 30mins with an average speed(from memory of 8.2kms?) This is from a chick who couldnt run 5 mins without feeling like she was gonna die:) I am also hitting my weights a couple of times a week although im hating my roster change because it leaves me two afternoons a week, not three like it used to be,,,,:( i used to go straight from work at 2.30 til 4 three times a week now its back to twice. I find it hard to exercise in the mornings so even thought i start work at 10.30 3x a week i dont get to the gym on those days...:( Although if i made the effort i CAN!!!!

Ah well all in good time and i have to get my shit together and make the effort......IF IT IS TO BE THEN IT IS UP TO ME!!!!! That is on my bathroom mirror, i see it everyday.

Hoping to get the vegie garden up and running today so that will be awesome, mind you time gets away from us and the garden turns feral in a very short amount of time hahaha, we seem never to have enough hours in the day like everyone else or we just dont manage them well,,,,although dont see how we never seem to stop for long:)

The kids are amazing and so grown up...im going to post some pics of them here soon too i hope. Leigh is well over 6 feet tall and just towers over me....not bad considering im 5ft 9and a half inches tall....and yes that half inch is worth mentioning LOL.

Keeps telling me you are so short Mummaxx

I have a list here in from of me called the DONT JUST SIT,.......DO LIST on it i have written

Knit
Sew
Crochet
Quilt
Quickbooks
Paperwork
Walk
Read
Gym
FB (cut back here tho:))
Treadmill
Photography
Ipod
Scrap
Read

They are things i can do if...gee whizz...i might get bored.
Tell me, does anyone else have a list like this and what would be on your list:)

Im going to head off now, i think im going to chip weeds along the front garden,just to tidy up abit, im gonna have my ipod going in my one good ear....ummm update to come regarding my hearing......dont feel like getting into it today:)

Have a fantabulous day and id love if you could tell my your Dont just Sit....Do list:)
Cya Charxxx

RIP Peter Edmond Size

Darrels dad passed away today. June 19th 2010. Although they were not close Daz felt he had to visit with his dad before he passed away and they did manage to chat twice in the meantime. Thankfully i think they both received something from these chats that had been missing for many years. Maybe just the acknowledgement that he was not a very good father, not hands on. Peter also told Darrel things that had been weighing on his mind so i think it was good for both of them to come to peace with each others views.

And on a happier note....my boy starts his new job in 2 weeks:) Proud of ya Matexxx Love ya too!!

RIP Thora aka Billie

We were lucky enough in Oct 2009 to go to visit with a Great Great Aunt of mine Thora.
She was a sweet funny lady. We caught up with her once before that and it was lovely to meet her. It was thnks to my Auntie Chrissy and family that we even met her.

Sadly Thora or Billie as she was most affectionately known passed away on the 6th of June, she was 4 days from being 100 and a half years old.

Such a rich life she would have had. The things she would have seen and done. They say when a person dies a library is burned, to think of all the stories she could have told and we infortunately didnt listen.
Rip Thora.xx

Dot Points

Just a few things happening in our world at the moment in no particular order and with no rhymr or reason!

* nearly finished picking our apples, one more pick for juice to go.
* ive picked up some really groovy yarn and am crocheting a really cool lap rug
* ive cut some ouf my quilt our but i feel so cacky handed and i am sure im doing it wrong:(
* im back at work full on, doesnt even feel like ive been away.
* im learning our new point of sale till program, which means i am learning how to make all those buttons on the touch screen tills give you the right prices when you press them, i am enjoying it although it is very hard when i am on and off it like you wouldnt believe due to other things i have todo at work. It would be so good if i could just get a run at it and go!
* Ive been playing on the Wii, was looking tonight at some new Wii fitness games, a jillian michaels one as well as bob and jillian from biggest loser which has heaps of extra stuff with it and what i really liked was active sports, then you can buy another game which continues on from the other one if you want.
* i have gone back to the gym, i got measured today and was devastated, i knew i had gained but not as much as i did....although i lost half a kilo!!!!! go figure, my trainer says its cause ive gotten soft :O...hahaha
* I like GLEE!!!!!! I love the music!
* We went to big W tonight as a family, we so seldom get to do that anymore and it was so lovely to wander together and apart and check stuff out. We lashed out and got two couch covers, in target so expensive, managed to pick then up for like 34 bucks each:)
* Have just about scraped all the pears.
* Apricots, YES WE STILL HAVE THEM.....are ready to be sorted and sold off.
* Getting my hearing aid next Monday the 24th May.
* Am going to Mildura on the 6th of June for pleasure and i cant wait:) Am thinking of photos and layouts to do:)
* rearranged the lounge room and added a beanbag tonight along with the new couch covers.
* Leigh is helping more around the house...im so pleased he has come of age as it were. I know sometimes he has had me pulling my hair out put at heart he is a sweetie and i so damn love him.
* oh he and his girlfriend have been together for jsut over 12 months.
* went to a friends 25th wedding anniversary
* started pruning with the chainsaw. You know i absolutley love pruning with the chainsaw, i get results. I love that you get such a buzz seeing all those branches fall to the ground and bring order to chaos. I must remember to take photos actually.
* Leigh got yet another car! That totals 4 yes 4!!!!! A gold VL berlina which is for sale....any one want it, a navara twincab utility which is also for sale! HE has his white VL but he was just given yes GIVEN another white VL which is leighs dream car it has a 5 speed manual on gas...only thing is, it is really quite in rough condition but the boys are doing it as a project car, they have already sanded the back quarter panel back to bare metal. Leigh is taken photos as he and dad go so it should be interesting to look back on them:)
* Leigh is doing TAFE once a week and he has just done a welding module, including mig, and some others i dont know what they are called, he is thinking that he may follow this path.....lets see. He is looking for another job as he is not happy where he is and really i think after giving him no shifts for 4 weeks that they are waitng for him to get jack of it and just leave.....so they dont have to actually sack him....
* hmmm thinking thats it for now but im sure as soon as i sign off i will remember more
have a great week......xx

The best way to deal with uncertainty is one step at a time...

That is what is happening here at the moment:)
I dont really want to hash over old details and i am trying so very hard to be positive with the changes that are going on in our lives at the moment.

After going to the Ear Nose and Throat Specialist for a check into my symptoms from Labryinthitis (sp?) he sent me to get a hearing test,,,no body thought to do one here at home, it did cross my mind but like me i guess the drs figured my hearing will come back in its own sweet time.....well apparantly not so!

After getting my hearing checked, my right ear results were not very good....now the results i didnt understand all i heard really was *unlikely to return*....trying to put on a brave front and thinking oh well hearing aid for me:)

It was after we left the office it hit me, i have to wear a hearing aid....well i lost it for a few minutes......at the end of it all though, i have only partly lost the hearing in one ear, i didnt lose a limb and my brain still works (kinda:p) so i just have to be a princess and suck it up and move on with my life.

This got us to thinking and Darrel rang the man who did my hearing test to find out exactly what we will be dealing with. Well it seems i only have 40% coherant hearing in my right ear, which really is better than before because i literally had none.
We have started the ball rolling on the hearing aid because i dont go back to the ENT guy til the end of may, then it will be over two weeks wait until i get my aid so we have organised to get the mould done.

I really need to get some thing happening because my boss needs to know what i am doing, i am on modified duties but i dont want to be doing what i am doing at the moment because it is hard work.....im cleaning as in industrial stuff:(
I was hoping to help and get into learn the new Point of Sale tills and program she in introducing into the shop but the man has yet to come back to show us more so we are waiting there too.

I am feeling pressure from a person at work who is being quite hostile, im not feeling like i am welcome there at all and this is upsetting me to some degree. But i have to let it go and focus on us.

I am off to have a MRI scan on thursday and to be honest i am packing it:( I cant help but think that qoute " hearing loss resulting from Labryinthitis is rare but can happen" unquote....... and that no news will be good news from the MRI..... but what happens if i am *one of the unlucky ones* and chosen again to receive the bad part of the news...like i said ...a bit hard to be positive.....

However i am trying......
I have a hubby who loves me to pieces...
i adore my kids, and although they drive me crazy at times.....whose kids dont?...god i love em to pieces...
i do have arms and legs that work....
my puppies make me laugh so much.....
i do for all intents and purposes still have a job.....
we have a roof over our head and food on the table....
i have friends that care for me...some even love mexxx thanks guys....

Well i shall pop back at some other later date to update on my life......fingers crossed that NO NEWS IS GOOD NEWS...... please please pleasexxx

Oh this is the way we roll here now!!!!!

A couple of photos to share:)
I love this photo of Zoe...my girlfriend from Adelaide and family decided that we would go garage sale shopping...we do it now and again and the kids get like an allowance and see what they can buy for 20c.....this day the girls found these *gorgeous* granny dresses and decided for $5 they would wear them through town and out shopping.....so we said why not! It was so hilarious! You should have seen people looking at them and of course they played up to it all the way.
After we got home the girls took the scissors to them and redesigned their own dresses, complete with maid head rags and the like, it was a really fun day.

The next photo is a few pieces of material that i have chosen for my quilt that i am making for my reading chair. I was actually looking for lime green hot pink and chocolate materials and i am not quite sure how i ended up with pink and pale green florals......i LOVE LOVE LOVE the centre material and will use that for my border as well. Its not a very good pic but i shall try to get a better pic.And a pic of the quilt i am going to make.
Unfortunatley, when i began cutting it out....i measured it wrong and all my pieces will be smaller cause i didnt tuck my material right into the corner of my cutting mat....but no matter, it will just be a smaller product right LOL

I realised that i havent been very photo sharing lately....not that ive taken many but there was an important milestone for Leigh on the 1st of May 2010.

He received his P's.
Yes that time has come for my baby to be independant.
Now it has been a long time coming. In his own mind he has fought many demons this last few months and i really feel that the receving of his licence has been a blessing and life saver to him. And yes to us on other levels. He was so caught up in Freedom and being able to do his own thing that it was an important milestone for him to reach.

I must say that there has been an HUGE improvement in him, his attitude to life, school, friends and us, his family.
We are so proud of him, he is trying so hard,he is alot happier with the added responsibilities and it actually shows in maturity that he has found.
You may see the southern cross decals on his car...well to him that is the sign of freedom, he is wanting to get it tattooed on his shoulder...hmmm not sure about that but anyway......he so wanted it on his car.

You have to laugh though because with a huge Great Southern Land sticker in hot pink covering his back window and great big pink stars on his bonnet you would know that it will stand out....especially to the boys in blue!

Yep you guessed it,,,,,,,his car screams LOOK AT ME LOOK AT ME!!!!!! and so they did.....already,,,,,,so guess who has taken all the stickers off and has a car that looks nice plain and like evey other holden in town:)

Anyway thats a quick post for now:)
May even get another in soonish:)

Hmmmm just musing!

Its 20 past 7 on a beautiful autumn day. My family are all in bed and i have been awake since 5.10am.
This Labyrinthitisis such an annoying part of my life right now. Hmmm, Dont know how to put a link in.
Its stopping me from doing alot of things. Im not at work because obviously with the loss of balance i cant carry anything.....i made that mistake by going to town one day after being sick for two weeks. I was trying to carry one bag of stuff and that even upset my balance.
This morning i am quite nauseous again, as i was yesterday. This i believe from the chiropractor appointment i had on friday. But im hoping its a good thing. I am going back on monday for another adjustment.

I have good moments and bad moments of course, anything is better than flat on your back in hospital with the room spinning and your body constantly rocking, so for that i am so grateful! I am on steroids for the inflammation part ot the problem and it started off as quite a high dose. I am now down to one for three days then 1/2 for three days and off! Yay! They are such scary things. While in hospital i was getting haeart palpitations and the whole bed felt like it was moving when they happenend! Thanks goodness as the dose went down they stopped.

I have an appointment on monday for a ct scan and then later in the month an appointment with an ENT specialist. I did actually have a mild case of this last May so im concerned that it has reoccurred and so severely, i need to find out if i am able to prevent it from happening again too.

Well lots has happened since i have been sick but only in my own mind. I have done lots and lots of thinking which you are quite apt to do with too much time on your hands. Gosh 3am in the morning a couple of times lying in bed my mind just racing......

I have a couple of ideas i want to float about in my head for a while and ruminate on. I have an idea of something i can work from home with in the time i have available to me.
Now its coming onto winter and the days are shorter i am planning on breaking my afternoons and evenings into time slots! Well that is the plan anyway.No, that will happen, our mantra is Make it happen,Captain! So take leadership!

I have been quite slowly doing tiny things that are making me feel good...eg cleaning out the kitchen drawers while sitting on the floor cause im too sick to stand,,,,i couldnt read or use the computer for a while as the movements made my eyes move which in turn made me feel sick, like motion sickness.....umm.making tags for pantry baskets, sorting them while sitting on the floor. So i am doing small things with out exerting myself......well i was sleeping for up to 16 18 hours a day! So not like me.

This condition i have at the moment can be viral or caused by stress...im betting mine is stress related. We have had a pretty bad run this year with Leigh suffering from anxiety, i suffer from it too but i tend to hide mine alot. I am able to cope by pushing things aside rather than deal with them. Funnily enought this does work for me, however i think the other pressures of running the block,there were work issues, Leigh, the kids in general just not being supportive in anyway to us, except when it did count through season time for which we really really appreciate but unfortunatly there are the day to day things that are important and need taking care of. I was going to the gym every day which i absolutley love....but my thought process of i cant control leighs anxiety but i can control my life mantra may have gotten an bit in the way. Dont get me wrong...i love seeing my body toning i love seeings muscles define through my skin its such a buzz....if only i can do dance classes or kickboxing...alas nothing here though in my area:( *sigh*...i so wish i could dance....even a tiny bit!

While thinking i have realised that us, like everyone else rush through our days getting done what we have to, not always what we need to, due to bad time management, illness, work, and other commitments. Gee we dont even see our friends anymore or take the time to visit family and i am kind of ashamed about that actually. THe block has taken over our lives totally and completely, and do you know what........big lightbulb moment here!
Yes we have a block, yes its 17 acres, yes it has our dream home on it, yes its hard work, yes we both work full time jobs,,,,but do you know what......i wouldnt say i LOVE it but i sure enjoy the benefits of living here. But the biggest thing that hit me while here thinking is........this block is our business.......and we dont run it like a business with the attention it deserves!
I need to take an active part in it rather than letting Darrel do all the work....sure i help him but really my heart isnt always in it to be honest. Ive decided that i am going to learn Quickbooks, but there is an ulterior motive here.....i want to be able to offer my services to my boss at work so i can expand my duties there. There are some more opportunities available there and i am wanting to grab some of them for myself:) anyway i digress!

Maybe by giving it the specific attention it needs rather than muddle on from day to day there will be some structure and things will be so much clearer and easier to manage?? Well i believe so anyway.

I want to learn QB and the BAS ect so that frees him up a little. I want to help decide which new tree varities we are going to plant. Yes there are water restrictions here and alot of people have taken exit packages but we arent prepared to do that. We want to hang in there and hopefully the benefits will pay off or us in the long run. Chatting to Leigh the other day he asked if we were really going to stay here for 5 years, which was our plan but im thinking that we have been here for two already and that we arent as far ahead as we would like to be sooooooooo i am prepeared to jump in and go for it now. Dont get me wrong i still want ot move to the Gold Coast Hinterlands somewhere.....where i dont know but dont care either:)
But for the immediate future its full steam ahead running this BUSINESS we OWN!!!!!!!
Funny how a thought can change the way you feel about sonmething.

Well im guess i can rant on here for ages more and i do tend to ramble alot but thats how my thoughts flow......i wanted to get some stuff down today so i can read back on it later. I missed alot of blogging this year with leigh, i did want to talk about it but i didnt want the world to see the ugliness that anxiety brings...it affected our whole family and not in plesant ways.
I think by denying myself an outlet here too, by not blogging and not scrapbooking either it may not have helped with my own stresses and maybe this has all culminated in this point in time an a bit if a wake up call to get my shit together.

I do have to add though that on the 14 April 2010 Darrel and i have been married for 21 years! What an achievement! I know we didnt nearly make our 10th so to soldier on with the love and commitment we have to our lives and our children together i am SO glad we are here.
I would loved to have renewed our vows or at least held a party to invite our friends to celebrate our milestone but unfortunatley life got in the way and this opportunity shall pass......but there can be a chance to do something else....Darrel did mention he would like to renew our vows......???? I think id like to do that it would be amazing i think.

My baby brother is getting married on the 25th september this year. I am so looking forward to it. He has held us in high esteem for years, as has one of my sisters, little do they know how hard it can be at times :) but anyway it is quite humbling for your siblings to look up to you really and i am so glad he is getting married. Naomi is a very quiet girl but boy she has the reins with him...i know i would hate to live with him he is so like my dad and son, temper and anger issues but definatley not violent just outbursty:) She loves him very much and doesnt take his shit which is great.

Im also excited because one of my sisters who i havent spoken to for years is going to the wedding too. I, unfortunatley have made judgements about my family and i hold myself a arms length quite alot where they are concerned. She has a daughter a month older than Zoe and i do feel bad that they dont know each other and i have kind of passed my thoughts on to my kids...now to turn it around and explain that it was wrong of me and im actually hoping secretly that i can mend these relationships. I know we will never be close, because of my *mother issues* and they all talk to my mother...where i have absolutley no interest in her or her life whatsoever and i dont want her having any input into mine or even to think about my life.

I am so looking forward to us all going and i really want lots of photos of all my brothers neices and nephews together....especially the girls because they are such a spunky gorgeous beautiful bunch of girls......who i really lovexx

Anyway im guessing i should go........this has been good for me to get down and out there. No one reads this blog much so it is kinda like a secret diary:)
Hve a wonderful week whatever you are doing and i will catch ya later

back to the land of the living,,,,slowly slowly.

Well i was going to blog about how well i have been going at the gym, my toning up results and how good im feeling about myself and where i am getting to a place in my life where i am accepting of myself and trying hard to accept things i cannot change and not to stress too much about life:)
But hmmm life has a way of tipping us up on our butts!

My story came about by not feeling too well last thursday afternoon, this culminated in daz having to come and drive me home from work as i was unsteady on my feet, nauseous and just plain revolting.
Fri went by in a blur of sickness, tablets and not much else. By saturday daz took me to the drs where i was admitted to hospital, i was given a shot of methodine, maxolon and stemasil? to help with the extreme vertigo dizziness and vomiting i was experiencing.
Well roll on that was the worst day of my life i reckon i thought i was going to die and didnt really care at that point! By sunday the dr came in to ask ...oh is it working??? Ummmmm der NO! so i was checked over by another dr who checked my eyes and immediately suggested i go on a drip and take steroids for the inflammation in my ear....i wasnt too sure on the details but i have since googled it....gotta love google and i have found information that is identical to what i experienced. Its called Labyrinthitis.

Apparantly the 5 steriod tabs i had to take at once was a really high dose to be given...i have 5 for three days and i have to wean off then for the next oh i think about 10 to 15 days or something? I have it on my fridge to help me remember.

After sleeping for nearly 4 days straight i didnt get much sleep one night at all....i think 3am after the drip came out. Drip one was 500mls per hour for two hours then drip two took 6 hours to empty, then drip 3 took 8 hours.......i felt so much better after the first one...i was quite dehydrated and when i could feel my skin beginning to like peel off my scalp the pain in my head began to recede.....its amazing the power water has on our bodies:)

So day 6 and the ear is still blocked, slight headache some dizziness and unsteadyness on my feet but god i feel so much better!

While awake til 3am i had some AMAZING thoughts go thru my head and i am so excited to be thinking about embarking on a new direction in my life but more to come on that so stay tuned if you are interested!

Cya later Charxx

List of things to think about

Thought i would add some photos for a change:)

Please meet my sweet puppy Lexxie

Check out our Xmas icecream pudding that is Leighs new tradition for our Xmas lunch

Introducing Winnie.....aka winfield, winnifred, winston!

and not at all least my two grown up brats on xmas day...please ignore the bed hair from zoe.....she had just recently dyed it too....from her natural blonde...to this! thankfully it has settled down now and is a lovely auburn colour....actually it suits her:) Oh leigh is approx 180cm tall and zoe at 14 is nearly caught up to her 16.5 yr old bro:)

I popped over to Mardis blog http://mardiwinen.blogspot.com/ today and while reading her list of *things to do* in no order and under no pressure it prompted me to add a few things of my own.

I did pop a few things down in my last post but a few of Mardis have prompted me to remember some things of my own.

And again in no order at all

1 use the camper trailer we have brought.

2 reach out to friends and family more,... invite new people over for BBQs

3 use the speedboat more

4 id like to go photography in some form...even just learn how to use my camera off manual settings

5 drive with my son more often so he can get his hours up

6 spend more time with daz and the kids (hence our trip to mildura on friday)

7 get fitter...currently my level is 48% needs to be at least in the 60's :)

8 take the puppies for walks....cant wait to show them off:)

9 tell my family i love them....more....so that they get sick of me:)

10 learn to make quilts

11 sew more clothes for me

12 read more

13 stop procrastinating!!!!!!

14 keep decluttering...its so liberating....look out ebay!

15 give it a go...dont think why i should or shouldnt do something..

im with you there Mardi....my anxiety doesnt help that one!

16 be extra supportive and show more interest with the kids

17 Listen to my kids and daz more, hear what they are really saying not what i think they are saying

18 dont assume because im thinking of something that my family knows what i want

19 Think positive

20 Act as if i can! .....its a quote i have on my fridge for Leigh and myself:)

21 Decide to be Happy! It is my choice! (another quote)

22 Take more time off work......ive earnt it and my bosses are fantastic dont get me wrong ,,,but i guess i like to feel needed ( i am a cancer after all )

23 use my embriodery machine more...after all it was expensive and sitting in a cupboard is doing it no good

24 cross things off our TO DO LIST we have :)

25 buy some new clothes (or make them) my clothes are like 6 or 7 years old alot of them.....

Mardi we should go to Mildura to shop for material...what do you think?:)

26 Dont feel like im mutton dressed as lamb if id love to try funky trendy clothes on.....

27 ride my pushbike to work sometimes (possible when leigh can drive zoe to school after feb)!

28 dont get on my laptop for 2 weeks if i dont want to:)

29 take more photos...have majorly slacked off this year....too much going on and not a topic condusive to photos....but all is coming together now thank goodness

30 think of something to be grateful for each day ( i write them on my bathroom mirror)

31 dont think about it, just do it

32 teach myself adobe.....ive forgotten!

Well thats it for the minute!

I hope Mardi and i can inspire you to achieve whatever it is you feel you want to this year....who said you had to make resolutions........

A resolution is means to be resolute,,,,which to me doesnt allow for compromise.......so dont beat yourselves up girls get out there and life the life you want......

After all we only have one so why spend time doubting yourself and being unhappy because you dont conform to what others think you should.

Life's too short! (another quote on the fridge after a close friend of darrels died recently!)

and i may or may not get to this blog soon but until then.....cya!

New Day, New Year, New Decade

and as usual i am always all fired up to eat healthily (which we do usually) get more organised, stop procrastinating....thats why last years tax has not been done yet.....but as a rule i dont make new years resolutions because i feel it is just setting myself up for failure.
Dont get me wrong, hey if you would like to give yourself some direction, and boy who of us can never have enough direction LOL then all the better and go for it.

Lots of things have happened in our lives lately and i have not had the strenght or energy to talk about it or share with anyone too much.
I am a quiet soul who shares very little with little few people:) I feel my family is my family and i dont like to bother people about my life...but i do have two girls who know all about us and me and never ever judge and for that i love you guysxx

Well where should i start to fill you in kinda briefly.


Oh by the way this is not a new years resolution to blog more either.....my life has changed and i no longer feel like scrapbooking anymore...i have lots of albums here that really i only look at, and yes i know it is for me and others peoples opinions dont matter but i cannot get past the fact that i have spent so much money on something that is getting hidden in the cupboards.

I am also trying to simplify our lives....have you even been swamped with the realisation that all the shit made to make your life easier just increases the stress at times just when you dont need it......even computers......mine has not been attatched to my hip like it used to be at one stage and for that i am happy because it frees me up to read and sew.

Yes i am going back to where i came from. I have always loved to read and i used to sew the kids clothes all the time and when they chose not to wear what mummy made anymore well i kinda jsut gave it up.

I have decided to start a quilt for myself and it is for a very special reason. I have a really old armchair here that was darrels grannys, she passed away nearly 2 years ago, well i want to restore her chair (or get someone to do it for me) and make a quilt for me in my fave colours so i can have a lamp in the corner of my bedroom and sit and read to my hearts content.
You see, my kids are growing up, life is moving on and i am worried that there will be a big hole in my life where my kids filled and i wont have done anything for myself. Joking......no i am sure you know what i mean:)


Master 16yo has a girlfriend and they have been going out since May 2009. Funnily enough they both have been to kindy and school all through their lives with no interest until May...isnt it funny how that works??

Miz 14yo also has a boyfriend who happens to be born the same day as her brother lives not far from here and she seems madly in hmmmm love, friendship not sure what you call it but it is cute to see. Scary too though!

Our fruit came in about 2 weeks early all round this year which has been fantastic, it means the apricots we usually pick from the 14 january we are currently picking and our season has been alot shorter. Less stressful in a way and we have been able to pace ourselves a little better.

We are taking a day off soon as a family to go for a day trip to Mildura. Leigh needs to get hours up....yes he is driving, he is going for his Ps in Feb and he is currently working on a car to get it up and running for *when he gets his P's* he has a car to drive!

DH and i celebrate 21 years of marriage this April, boy where did that time go!!

He has had a huge year too, apart form running our 17 acres and working fulltime he achieved a "Diploma in Horticulture" this came through the Recognition of Prior Learning studies people are able to do to get certificates and training. Im so proud of him...it makes the 21 years of learning and his knowledge all the more worthwhile, some things you just cannot put a price on.
It was also lovely of his company to recognise his 21 years of service with then. They handed out a list of suppliers where you could choose to get a voucher from as a gift from the company. I talked him into getting one from a clothes store......a trendy surf and street wear shop and it turns out he got a $300 voucher to spend on clothes......some of the others are spewing they chose places like Mitre 10. Not that there is anything wrong with that but when you can go buy what you need when you need it the re is no need to chose from there:) He is so happy he can now go clothes shopping.

In other news, since we have been so busy with our lives we have decided to sell our two boats and just buy one dinghy but a big enough one that we can wakeboard behind as well. It looks like we have sold the small dinghy yeeha!

Oh oh nearly forgot. Leigh was commissioned to help design a mural for the council for the public library. He and the guy who asked him to help designed some filmstrips and they decided which they liked better and have painted them on a wall in the library...it looks freakin awesome...and leigh got his name on it so there is some recognition for his talent as well....he is so fantastic at drawing, i suggested he become a tattoo artist:)
He has had a few blows dealt to him this year...consequently he is undecided about being a graphic artist and did change his focus to diesel mechanic or builder.

His building projects he did at school were bloody brilliant, he made an entertainment unit for himself, a stool and a coffee table for us:)
He is looking to do a school based apprenticeship but he needs to find some one in the fields he is interested in to want to take on somebody for two days per week for the year. The employer will get reimbursed and leigh will get paid so it would be a win win all round so we have to wait and see which way he is going to go i guess.

Well i might stop here...i dont think many people pop by my blog...however i do have a big bag here or scrappy stuff to give away so if anyone is in the mood to receive a RAK of scrap goodies leave a comment and i will send it to the first person who leaves a message with the workRAK in it somewhere:)

Have a fantastic 2010 and i hope that life is good to you...if you had a crappy 2009 well lets hope that the rounding off to 2 10 rounds off your crappy year as well.

Seeya when im looking at ya!

Oh i have a few photos to post but goodness knows when that will happen...it all seems to damn hard sometimes lol.....

Because we have extended our family:)






No.....not babies....well yes but they are fur babies.....

Winnie is a jack russell X male puppy born 13 aug 2009

Lexxii is a (well supposedly) shitzu X jack russell female puppy but looks like Chiuaha (SP????? LOL) she was born on 18th aug 2009. They are from two different bitches but from one friend and so have been together since birth basically......

okay time to goxxxxx